today we recall david foster wallace, a sensational american novelist who was found dead in his los angeles home after apparently commiting suicide. foster wallace wrote a number of excellent books and short story collections; his 1100 page (and 400 footnote) magnum opus, infinite jest, occupied my summer’s worth of subway rides about 7 years ago.
foster wallace gave a commencement address at kenyon university in may 2005 that is well worth reading.
Because here’s something else that’s weird but true: in the day-to day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as atheism. There is no such thing as not worshipping. Everybody worships. The only choice we get is what to worship. And the compelling reason for maybe choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to worship — be it JC or Allah, bet it YHWH or the Wiccan Mother Goddess, or the Four Noble Truths, or some inviolable set of ethical principles — is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It’s the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally grieve you. On one level, we all know this stuff already. It’s been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, epigrams, parables; the skeleton of every great story. The whole trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness.
some notes on suicide, from these two sources:
- on average, 89 americans commit suicide each day. the vast majority of suicide victims are white, male, and young. the american estimate is that, for each completed suicide, 25 attempts are made; 816,000 annual suicide attempts are made in the u.s. (or 1 for every 367 people).
- in canada, 3,765 suicides were reported in 2003 (compared with 2,766 traffic fatalities in that year). suicide is the leading cause of death for men aged 25 to 29 and 40 to 44, and for women aged 30 to 34. it is the second leading cause of death among youth aged 15 to 24. For each completed suicide there are 100 attempts, and over 23,000 Canadians are hospitalized each year for a suicide attempt.